lovely feeling

Don't know what to think at the moment, i feel like i should stick to what i had before, not now, especially some new friendship that recently came to me. they are not bad, they are just awkward, in a way. don't know if i should let it goes on or just personally (also means secretly) stop it as soon as possible. one of my best friend did say that as long as you feel fine with the thing u r having then it's ok. i guess so. uhmmm. so confused. it is just like being in another world with them, being a different person, not sure if it's a good one, but sometimes i do feel good. anyway, i will just let it be wat it be and will appreciate wat i have, in the best way that i can.

So, i had a super normal day today, staying at home all day long like a prisoner, except for lunch cos i went out so that my stomach could work better with restaurant food. i kept checking stupid stuffs online and seeing things that i don't wanna see, stuffs people said, haizz, just so awfull, i know i don't want this!
I did some chinese revision for the day, i mean really! this time i made it!(somehow) i need to work harder for myself, i just thought about my future and everything would not be fine if i just be like what i am at the moment. i felt so lazy and tired, even i don't really do anything physically. trust me, i'm a real weirdo sometimes, guess i have to change my lifestyle abit, make it faster!

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